Warning: This article contains content that some readers may find distressing and/or triggering.
A woman has opened up about her devastating miscarriage in a heartfelt post on Instagram.
Instagram user, Sally Mustang took to her platform to share her tragic experience of losing her baby.
"In society it's not really treated like birth. It's not really talked about. I'm guilty of it, when others shared with me about their miscarriage i flinched. Uncertainty on the whole thing. I sent my Love & sorrows but never inquired further about what the experience was like for them," she wrote.
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"I never sent flowers, or offered a meal. I never treated it with the respect it deserved. I never treated it like birth or death. Before experiencing it myself, I guess I believed it was like a heavy cycle. A heavy bleed. It wasn't. It was birth & death. Together.
"With surges, contractions, waves - whatever you want to call them. It was an experience beyond the veil just like birth, where time is stopped & you enter the sacred gates of life and death. 3 moons of carrying you. Sharing a home with you before you left."
Sally went on to describe the heartbreaking moment she found out her baby's heartbeat had stopped.
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"The night we got home after finding out your heartbeat had stopped, I walked up the stairs in confusion & hurt. There was no power. A Black out. No light. Which felt fitting to the moment," she continued.
"Your dad & I wandered around taking turns of holding Azure and lighting the 50 or so candles around our home. The entire house turned into an alter. With the flame flickering all over the wooden walls."
In a second post, Sally explained her experience of miscarrying her baby, and how she gave birth to her foetus during the night.
"Throughout the night I felt waves of Light surges. Than full forced surges a little before dawn. These were very similar to the surges I felt while giving birth to Azure. I moaned, cried, screamed, twitched, hugged Azure in my lap. Breastfeeding him through a lot of it," she said.
"Azure had a raging fever of over 40 most of the night because he is often sensitive to energies & situations. As the night turned silver, dawn around the corner, my contractions were getting stronger.
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"Mitch had to rock Azure, sing to him, soothe him downstairs, while Jala sat by my side in bed. Curled into my chest (heart) holding me. I remember wrapping my arms around her hugging into her as the surges got more intense and I birthed your little body. I stood up & the fetus fell to the floor. I had to scoop it up into my hands. I was sick afterwards.
"Vomiting. Sobbing. The sky was painted orange & pink, dawn lighting up our world. A heavy mist fell over the tree tops as the sunlight peaked over the mountains. I felt the light of the sun touch me, after hours in darkness.
"I realised in that moment that this was a blessing you had bestowed on us. I felt the divine wisdom of you. Something in that little body wasn't perfect & you left saying I'll come back to a body that is better for me. A better timing for me.
I trust you. I love you. a la prochaine - until next time. Sweet one."
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Topics: Life News, miscarriage, Parenting