If you've lost a parent then this isn't going to be an easy read. Nikki Pennington is a blogger at Grief to Hope and she has shared a poem on the struggle she went through after losing her mum to brain cancer eight years ago.
The Facebook post, which Nikki shared originally back in November, has received a lot of engagement from her followers in the past few days.
Nikki has previously spoken publicly of her grief in a feature for Pop Sugar about how her mum was, and still is, her best friend.
The mum of one is now 35 and has children of her own. And like anyone who has lost a parent, she wishes her mum was still here to share her experiences of motherhood.
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In the popular post she talks about her struggle in searching for her mum everywhere even know she knows she's not here anymore and how she eventually through her grief realised she was with her all along:
"And when she dies you'll search for her no matter how long she's been gone
You'll search for her the minute she leaves in that very room
You'll search the sky
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You'll search online
You'll search group forums
You'll search old messages
You'll search old text messages
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You'll search old letters
You'll search old cards
You'll search for her
You'll search old high school yearbooks
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You'll search old photo albums
You'll search the memories of old friends
You'll search her things
You'll even search the crowds
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Even though someone told you she's gone, you'll still search for her
And when you are walking down the aisle, when your baby is born and when the holidays come around, you'll search the room for her
When the days are hard and when they are good
When the times are difficult and when they are so good that pure joy is filling your soul
When you are sitting on your back porch trying to sort out all your problems you'll look over because even if for a minute you'll be searching for her
Then one day you won't have to search any longer because you'll find her
You'll find her in the gentle breeze
You'll find her in the words to your favorite [sic] song
You'll find her in your child's smile
You'll find her more and more as the days pass and then one day you'll realize [sic] she's been there all along
You didn't need to search far to find her because you are her daughter and that means a part of her is always with you".
Her followers responded with a flood of support for the 'motherless daughter'.
One said: "Oh myyyyy. Crying at work ain't cool lol. Whew."
While another said: "It's sooooooo hard! My mom went to heaven 6 months ago and I miss her every hour, every day"
Nikki replies to most comments with messages of support for her Grief To Hope community which you can follow here.
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